God's always there!!!!

haven't blogged in a while,
and sooooo much has been happening!
man!

i'm surprised how God will still use people, even if they're not 100% for him.
and also, his forgiveness is powerful!

who has ever felt like they're 100% alone?
that's how i've been feeling for a month.
only recently have i started to accept that God forgives and that there is still hope for a sinner.
the past month i've felt like the devil has had control over me and that i've just been a puppet, trying, but unable, to escape.
so many times i've come to God, but not whole-heartedly, always doubting him.
man, i've messed my life up.
but hey, wat i'm trying to say is don't get to the point that i got to.
it's not a happy place.
God is good, and he does forgive!
and through all this month of me doubting God and being so stupid and messing everything up God has stuck by me, he hasn't abandoned me, but he's continued to use me, whether i acknowledge it or not.

just a few things that he's done through me:
-my little brother gave his life to God!
-he gave me a chance to preach!
-he's put a roof over my head!
-he sent me to a leadership camp and blessed me with a way to get there!
-he's given me countless opportunities to talk to people about him and Christmas and wat the Salvos are doing!
-he's put me there when friends have needed to talk.
-he gave me a much higher enter score than i expected: 65.8 (i was expecting 40 or something)
-he's blessed me with the perfect course for next year!
-God has blessed our jnr. youth group and kid's biz and wen i've worked @ Nicely Saved.
-he's gotten me through each day!
-he used me in our church nativity set!
-and there's so much more, even the small things like getting my smoke alarm fixed so fast and stopping a friend from dying from an OD has been 100% God's work!

i want to praise God for all that he has done and let each of you know that even through the bad times, when you think that God is no longer there or doesn't care, HE DOES!
he will never leave you nor forsake you and his love is eternal!
he is faithful, even when we're not, because that is who he is!
all i ask is that you pray for me and let me know if God has put any message on ur heart for me.
i can't believe i'm being so open. lol.
may God bless you and keep you, for God is love and love is the greatest of all!
love in Christ, alana